From: Wednesday September 1, 2010

Wednesday September 1, 2010
Today in sceince we did five LABS. They seemed kind of dangerous so I was hoping we would get paired with the person we were sitting next to. Why? Because the person I am sitting next to is a guy who doesn’t seem like the kind of person to care about doing something like that. And I do care so I would just pretty much watch the experiment. However my hope was dashed when he said we got to pick our parters. I looked at ****** who was making eye contact with ******. I asked ****** if I could join her group (you have a group of three or four). Her response was ‘I don’t care.’ I didn’t think that made me feel very wanted but it was a group and this way I wouldn’t get stuck with a bunch of guys. So as I am getting up I decided to ask ****** if I would be able to join her group, hoping for a better response. However I got the same response, ‘I don’t care.’ Then I see ****** leaning over and whispering to some girl I don’t know with a piece of paper blocking my view so I can’t see what she is saying. the girl glanced at me and then nods her head. ‘We have four’ ****** says to me, looking up. I have always thought of ****** as a friend and hoped she would stick up for me because we are friends, right? But ******, ****** and their two friends walked away leaving me standing there. I know this is not a very nice thing to think, but I always got the vibe that ****** never liked me that much. So I could think when I saw her was ‘b*tch.’ And let me tell you, right then and there I thought that was the perfect thing to say to the girl who never liked me. Obviously I didn’t say it to her but I thought that every single time I saw her that day. And why doesn't she like me? Because I was friends with ******. Notice the ‘was’. She is obviously pretty bad too. I hate it when I am someones back up plan. Because their preferable friend isn’t there so lets be partners.
I ended up being partners with ******, some guy and another girl. The other girl, I think her name is ******* was nice to me, and I think she saw the whole ******, ****** thing. My next class is Geo. I am hoping that will go well… since I had a pretty horrible start to the day.