Saturday February 19, 2011

This is a strictly friends and guys update. Here goes.

Friends: ***** and I are no longer friends. Why you might ask? Because of a project in school that we were working on with two other people. And she didn't put her stuff on and I told her she needed to and yep! She must've gotten pissed or something because now we don't talk. At all. Period. She hates me. And she is STILL waiting for me to email her and apologize and say how sorry I am for whatever the hell I did. But I didn't do anything. So I won't be apologizing for anything I didn't do. I feel kind of lighter now that we aren't friends. IDK I just feel like I am not being judged about everything. She is way to sensitive about what other people are thinking about her. So now I wear what I want and know I won't be judged. Plus! Now I am friends with *******. She is actually a really nice person. And I am glad I got to figure that out on my own because otherwise I would still not like her simply because ***** told me she was mean. Okay, guess we should move along here.

Guys: Well ****** and I are on good terms I guess. He flirted with me at one point which weirded me out because like, he IS dating someone...... Anyways, I like ******* now and he is a much better guy to like probably. Even though I do still like ****** a little. You can't completely turn off a crush! UGH! And then there is ****** who really likes me and keeps trying different tactics to ask me out or something. It's really awkward and I don't like him that way.... Oh well.

Cookies

For the most part I am happy with who I am. However there is so much pressure from magazines, TV and media that you have to fit into this cookie cutter person. You have to be thin. You should be tall. Whats in this season will be out next season. Nobody is pretty enough to leave the house without foundation on. Your nails should always look good and be painted the color of that season. Your hair should look nice. You need to get good grades. If you don't get A's and B's C's are not average. C's are bad. Nobody gets C's. If you do get a C it's bad. End of story. If you dress differently you're weird. Unless you start a trend. But you have to be weird at first. If you were heels you may be labeled as a slut, skank or whore. If you wear Converse, you are so last year. Nike's, military boots anything like that are in. If your clothing is too tight you are an immediate slut. If your hair looks weird, you're weird. Thats the cookie cutter image.