From: Friday December 9, 2010

Friday December 9, 2010

So it is Friday and thats a good thing. Sunday I have auditions for a show which is exciting!!! Especially since ****** said she already has a role picked for me!! Hopefully thats true. Anyways then Monday are dance auditions for Grease. I am not super nervous about that but I probably will be by 3:00 on Monday! lol. I need to read a lot this weekend of Huck Finn. Fun, fun! Then either Tuesday, or Wednesday I will be auditioning, for the singing part of the musical. That I can say pretty freely I am VERY nervous for... Especially since I don't feel like I know the song too well... Gotta practice some more. On the guy front things aren't good. The guy I like is dating someone now. Someone that absolutely hates me. At first I kind of understood why she hated me, we liked the same guy (that didn't mean that I didn't like her though). And now that she is dating him she still hates me, so I am totally unsure what is going on but obviously it is her own problem that she needs to fix. And its been about two weeks since they started dating so now that it has set in I am happy for him, honestly. Of course at first I was and still am a little mad at him. He seemed like he liked me. It was so obvious!! Even if you were blind you would say he liked me. And everyone said they were so sure that he liked me. But then along came Polly, er not Polly but another girl. And yeah he has known her longer than he has known me and he knew that she has liked him a really long time. But anyways I probably made it pretty obvious I was mad at ****** when I saw him walking down the hall that day I found out. Every single time we turn this corner every day we make eye contact. And then usually he looks away first and obviously we keep walking. Well I think I may have *possibly* given him a pissed off look because then his eyes got big and I looked away. And then after that he has just seemed pissed at me. Even though I am over being mad at him for the most part when he talked to me once in the past two weeks he sounded all angry... who knows why. I think he knows that I like him. I told ****** and he told ******* and she probably told ***** because they seem like they are best friends and she probably said something like 'don't talk to her, she flirts with you.' or something like that, when really I suck at flirting with ******. I just talk to him like he is any other guy. And then there is my friend ****** who said 'I knew ****** would ask ***** out.' Which was really a great thing to tell me the day I found out they were dating and I was pretty mad at ****** because maybe she should have told me earlier before they started dating!!!!! UGH! Anyways now I am scared for auditions because we will probably have to read as lovers or something onstage and I'll freak out and break character and hopefully still be able to do a semi-good job. Just not a good situation.
As far as friends go, things are pretty good. ***** and I are having a Christmas party next Saturday. So we'll see how that goes.